be loud. be proud

I'm Gay

© Cj Curtis

I once loved one man, he took my only heart

and right there in front of me, he ripped it apart

I know he didn't mean to, and the fault is mine to blame

but the guilt and pain remains all the same

but now I understand, why he ran away

now I understand why he didn't stay

he was afraid to love, and afraid to take a chance

he was afraid to leave and make another stance

he was afraid to make his mark on societies wall I once loved one man, he took my only heart

and right there in front of me, he ripped it apart

I know he didn't mean to, and the fault is mine to blame

but the guilt and pain remains all the same

but now I understand, why he ran away

now I understand why he didn't stay

he was afraid to love, and afraid to take a chance

he was afraid to leave and make another stance

he was afraid to make his mark on societies wall

he was afraid to take a leap, as he could fall

he would have rather stayed inside that rotting jail

he rather stay with society, even though I paid bail

he made his mind and stayed with society

even though he had his chance to be free

so now as I sit outside societies dream

I linger like a nightmare, making people scream

they say its just a phase, that I'll get over it soon

they say its a disease, like the werewolf and the moon

but deep down in my heart, I know it isn't so

because I have to be strong, so I can show

people like the one man who threw me in a bin

that no matter how hard they try, we will never give in!

cause what's the point of hurting us? so we can feel bad?

so we can understand what its like to be sad?

well we already know just how it feels

cause it is so hard for us to reveal

that we like the same sex, and who really gives a damn?

goes in the end we all still go all cold and clam

so who cares if I'm gay! I am proud to be

because in my world I take it as a victory

that I can make a choice and stand from the rest

be an individual and try my best

and kids at school may laugh at me and call nasty names

but you know what? it doesn't matter it's all a game!

cause later on in life they will suddenly see

that the reason I was gay, was because it was me

so go on a call out names and raise your heads so high

but remember who I am, just before you die

remember that I was strong and managed to pull through

and remember that if I can do it, then so can you

so today I stand and say that I am proud to be gay

and if I had a choice... I'd have it no other way!

he was afraid to take a leap, as he could fall

he would have rather stayed inside that rotting jail

he rather stay with society, even though I paid bail

he made his mind and stayed with society

even though he had his chance to be free

so now as I sit outside societies dream

I linger like a nightmare, making people scream

they say its just a phase, that I'll get over it soon

they say its a disease, like the werewolf and the moon

but deep down in my heart, I know it isn't so

because I have to be strong, so I can show

people like the one man who threw me in a bin

that no matter how hard they try, we will never give in!

cause what's the point of hurting us? so we can feel bad?

so we can understand what its like to be sad?

well we already know just how it feels

cause it is so hard for us to reveal

that we like the same sex, and who really gives a damn?

goes in the end we all still go all cold and clam

so who cares if I'm gay! I am proud to be

because in my world I take it as a victory

that I can make a choice and stand from the rest

be an individual and try my best

and kids at school may laugh at me and call nasty names

but you know what? it doesn't matter it's all a game!

cause later on in life they will suddenly see

that the reason I was gay, was because it was me

so go on a call out names and raise your heads so high

but remember who I am, just before you die

remember that I was strong and managed to pull through

and remember that if I can do it, then so can you

so today I stand and say that I am proud to be gay

and if I had a choice... I'd have it no other way!

Poem from BestTeenPoems

*Note: The original published version of this poem hand no period breaks, so I added them for easier reading. My apologies if they are in the wrong spot. i am not a poet.